school is starting soon and im really tired today :(
getting my extensions today but i have to change my appointment :/
coloured my hair yesterday, but my hair got too bright :/ gonna make it dark brown after school..but i dun know yet :) ill see later..depends on, what the drugstore is selling :)

today will be really tiring..u know..my school is in shibuya but i life in kamata, which is like 1 hour with the train. so im going home after school to colour my hair again, going to shibuya again to get my extensions and going home again :/
kinda stupid..i just wanna sleep..
maybe im going to the tanning studio, but that depends on the time :)

just got something around 600 cals this morning..trying to eat a bit sushi for dinner (^_^)v

tmr im gonna start the 2468 diet..hope i can do it :)

well..see u later (^◇^)┛

i got home now. so i just changed into clothes to smoke against the hunger..dun wanna eat more than my breakfast today. i hope tmr will get as good as today, too!

i bought the present for my best friend but i think it isnt enough, so im gonna buy some more tmr..
also bought a new bag and 2 pairs of pumps..and colour for my hair. gonna do that later :)

im fitting in my beloved black pants again but feel fatter then ever..hope i can do my 100 lbs until april..but i guess im gonna do it!

well..im gonna go to buy my magazin now :)
and yea..getting my hair long tmr :D im really happy about that..also going to the tanning machine - wanna be tanned soon. somehow i feel skinnier, if im tanned....

and woa, ive got a japanese test tmr, but no one told me..but i guess im gonna be able to do it :)

i feel guilty. i dun wanna eat anymore..
just had to talk to my teacher..he said i might not grading to next grade cause i was absend too often..that sucks so much..im just an exchange student, so they shouldnt care about me..im back in germany from july on anyways..it sucks

im really pissed of now..gonna skip last lesson and going to buy a present..
have to go to school everday now..it sucks

i could cry and just feel like shit now..:/

i just got into school now and english classes are starting soon..havent been there for a while..
my english got really bad..its creepy (ノ△Ｔ)

did i mention? the class changed seats while i was absend..and now i got a supercool seat at the window V(^-^)V

im drinking cafe au lait right now..and this shit has 109 cals. im gonna fast for today - no lunch and no dinner..i feel so fat again..i just want to sleep..everything sucks. even seeing good friends after 3 weeks again dun make me happy..

how sad..

well..im just on my way to school..waiting for the train now (>_<)
did i mentioned that i hate my schooluniform? i really hate it..its so ugly and the skirt is really pissing me of..but cant change it..maybe gonna buy a new one, when my mum's coming to japan (^_^)v

well yea..im going to fasting today. just had my breakfast, which was almost to much..i feel fat again..my skirt isnt that short as usual.
this day might be a really, really bad one..well, im going to harajuku after school. have to buy a present for my best friend and need to buy new haircolour, cause im getting new extensions tmr..

well, im on the train now and i hate it. too many ppl and this greedy old lady just ripped my seat..

whatever, see u in lunchtime (^∀^)ノ

its 4 am now and i just ate my breakfast..couldnt resist and ate german baumkuchen with 366 cal..plus a cup of coffee..
if i dun eat lunch and dinner today, i didnt that bad i guess..maybe im getting one onigiri with like 90 cal for dinner..might be ok i guess.

just had 350 cal yesterday and did some sports!

hope it will get better..

getting ready now, but might be posting in lunchtime (^_^)v

its 6 am now and i didnt get any sleep..its getting bright now.
i decided to go not to school..i guess i would collapsing or something. i need a rest..just wrote my mum a memo that im not going today..

i guess my class dun know me anymore :/ wasnt in school since a really long time..
but somehow i dun really mind

well..trying to sleep

good night from now on